My August Quest
(Flower of May 1981)
A poem of mine published in Broadsheet,
Manila Bulletin dated November 27, 2002, in the section JUST FOR KICKS under subsection DIARIES.
It was just an ordinary day,
That turned out into something special .
I never expect that it would happen in my life,
An affair that's carved forever in my heart.
It was ne'er designed to changed my life,
But it did happen,
I try to resist but it is of no use,
Cause I'm too weak and you are to strong.
I wanted to blame myself,
For being your prey.
But I have to be honest with myself,
That I enjoy every moment of it.
Everyday I always think of you,
And always looking forward to that day,
That I'll see you again
How blissful my heart is.
I know that my simple happiness,
Would only last for a day.
Because I know you are not meant for me.
A fact I have known long before.
I know I am stupid,
But hell I don’t care , it’s killing me.
If I would delude myself of what I truly feel.
Even once in a while.
But I never dream of having you
For the rest of my life,
Because I'm fully aware that it would be impossible,
You already belong to someone else.
 Good Tuesday morning, friends! Given that the name of my blog is the not-so-perfect life , I will start blogging about one of the not-so-perfect about me. And here is my story.
I've struggled with weight problems after giving birth to my first baby. But for the past two years, I've been eating more and more frequently and has gained 40 pounds. I've been uneasy about my weight gain. I hate the way I look ,family starts to get worried , other people also starts to observed that every time they see me I became bigger and bigger. I am fully aware that I'm becoming unhealthy and at risk of getting sick. But I don't know how to stop my out-of-control eating. I've been trying to eat normally, but as the day goes on the craving gets stronger and stronger. During out of town trips, I tend to eat a lot so that I won't sleep . Once alone, in the hotel room I pig out as a compensation for being alone. If I get stressed, I eat and eat. If I'm happy, I eat and eat. After that, I criticize myself for being such a pig , but deep down in me I know it won't be long until I eat and eat and eat again. Am I addicted to food? These past few months, I become more conscious of my body , I tend to exercise and watch what I eat. But, it was just good on the first few days but as the days go on I go back to my unhealthy ways again. I was hopeless and desperate to loss weight. I've tried many ways... but it served futile. I lack discipline and self-control. This time around, I've been exerting effort to know the underlying reasons why I've been over-eating. I just don't focus on how to get back in shape again but I tried to know myself, why I've been like this. And I discovered that I've been suffering from emotional eating. I used food to cope with stress and other negative emotions. If I don't acknowledge this, this will lead to binge eating disorder. After knowing all these facts, I've been figuring out how to release stress and negative emotions aside from eating. I'll blog that as soon as I've figured it out or you can help me too! I know, this is not my journey alone. I need support from love ones and friends. Or from a stranger...anyway I do accept unsolicited advices. By the way, if you can relate to my story...better check below the signs of emotional eating. Happy eating! Errr... happy reading... Signs of Emotional Eating / Using food to:
- fill a void in your life
- feel better or cheer yourself up
- calm down or soothe your nerves
- escape from problems
- cope with stress and worries
- reward yourself
When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.
What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small.
When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all.
 click the image to watch the video. Let me share to you a short spiritual story I stumble in the net. I was so inspired and moved that I can't help but share this with you, my dear friends. I hope you too will be inspired.
Here it is :A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups have been taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.
Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... And then you began eyeing each other's cups.
Now consider this: Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of life we live.
Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee. Savor the coffee, not the cups! The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything. Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.By the way, if you want to read more inspiring stories you can visit this site www.Spiritual-Short-Stories.com
Monday it is! Waking up on a Monday morning is the least of my favorites. It just means that weekend is over and you have to shift to work mode again and for me it means, out of town trips and be away with my kids AGAIN.
But this morning, it feels different! I so love this morning, aside from the fact that i woke up on the right side of the bed. It feels great to wake up hearing your kids say good morning , a tight hug and a light happy talk before getting out of the bed. These simple things are the the things that i sometimes forgot to savor , sometimes i took for granted! What an awakening! What a great way to start my week... hopefully, tuloy-tuloy na'to this week!!!
Have a great week my friends!  me and kids @ dakak park and beach resort
 What's the purpose? Yes, we know it is a small world. Whether we like it or not, there is a great chance that we will bump into an ex be it in the virtual world or in the real world.
Is it impossible to befriend an ex? Is it a sensible thing? Or is it stupid? Well, for me befriending an ex is not stupidity. I believe what is past is past. If you have totally move on and outgrew the feeling, it is pretty cool to be friends with your ex. Befriending does not necessarily mean reestablishing a close connection, just being civil and nice.
The risks? It might be hard to draw the line? Befriending might bring back a lot of memories both good and bad which might hurt your feelings all over again?
Considering the risks, let us not disregard that some ex's turn out to be good friends. But before entertaining the thought to befriend your ex, just make sure that you have fully recovered and moved on. Make sure also if it's worth the friendship.
 Click the image to see the video. A 2 year old baby who's smoking is in the news. The baby is from Indonesia. According to the news, he can consumed two packs a day and would get mad if they will try to stop him from smoking to the extent of banging his head to the wall. The baby started to smoke at the age of 18 months old.
Hearing news like this troubled me so much. Especially that I am already a parent, i can never help myself but be angry, outraged to the parent of this kid. How could they? Why do they allowed, much worst influenced their baby to smoke at a tender age of 18 months. At that age, the baby can barely talk , can barely walk but already influenced by bad vices. Parents are there to take care and to protect their baby from the harsh realities in life not to pushed them to the perils of this world.
Hopefully, the Indonesian government will take this issue seriously and for the Philippine government, hopefully this will be a warning sign, a reminder to do their job to protect ... what Dr. Jose Rizal considers as the HOPE of our motherland.
I could not find the right words to write of how feel about the Maguindanao Massacre. As of November 24, authorities already recovered 46 victims killed in the politically-motivated massacre. Those victims were among the group of some 50 men and women, including lawyers and journalists who were about to file a certificate of candidacy in behalf of Esmael “Toto" Mangudadatu, vice mayor of Buluan town, who planned to run against Ampatuan’s son Andal Jr. for the gubernatorial post.
They who were abducted by an estimated one hundred armed men reportedly belonging to the camp of Governor Andal Ampatuan of Maguindanao province.
I need not to write more. I need not to name names. I need not to give more details. The incident has been all over the papers, on tv and on the internet. All I can say is, JUSTICE should be served and punish those people behind this beastly and gruesome killings.
WARNING: GRAPHIC PHOTOS BELOW. Dead bodies lie on the ground near their vehicles at the crime scene of a massacre of a political clan that included several journalists in the outskirts of Ampatuan, Maguindanao in southern Philippines. Note: All photos were obtained from other news-blog sites and some via ATWITPICS from ANC (ancalerts). Ownerships retained by photographers and media firms.
 A very breathtaking experience! Imagine yourself strolling on a pristine powdery white sand beach, looking across a beautifully shaped island cove , picture gazing a sunset horizon while lying on a hammock set under lush trees, hearing the waves clash calmly against the shore. This are the few soothing pleasure Dakak Park Beach Resort can offer.Dakak Park Beach Resort is situated in Brgy. Taguilon , Dapitan City. Approximately 15 minute ride from the City. Conveniently surrounded by large island, Dakak avoids the typhoon belt, making it the ideal all-season destination.
 Dakak's accommodation consists of 144 beautifully appointed rooms built in native style duplex bungalows ,26 Bungalows, 106 Deluxe Bungalows and 12 Beachfront Bungalows.Sensitively designed in keeping with the natural surroundings, the distinctive native style cottages are constructed in traditional bamboo and nipa leaves, and feature marble tiled bathrooms and capiz shell window panes.
Each bungalow is equipped with airconditioner, color television, NDD/IDD telephone, mini-bar, shower/bath with hot and cold running water, dressing area and main bedroom.
You will absolutely not get bored in Dakak. They have wide array of outdoor activities to choose from. The snorkeling and diving here is truly exhilirating. With professional diving school and dive boat all at your disposal you can head out on a dive cruise for anything up to ten days with full provisions aboard. Whilst back on land, tennis and golf come complete with professional instruction. There's Archery, billiards, ten-pin bowling and horse back riding down tropical trails.
Let me share with you what every woman deserves. You may not agree with me but this is what I believe...
A woman will get only what she seeks
Choose your goal carefully
Know what you like and what you do not like
Be critical about what you can do well and what you cannot do well
Choose a career or lifestyle that interests you and work hard to make it a success
But also have fun in what you do
Be honest with people and help them if you can but don't depend on anyone to make life easy or happy for you ( only you can do that for yourself )
Be strong and decisive but remain sensitive
Understand who you are and what you want in life before sharing your life with someone
When you are ready to enter a relationship make sure that person is worthy of everything you are physically and mentally
Strive to achieve all that you want
Find happiness in everything you do
Love with your entire being
Love with an uninhibited soul
Make a triumph of every aspect of your life
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